Hi Everyone! Ahh! So totally sorry that I haven't been keeping up with the retro entries either! Yikes!!! I'll make it up somehow. hehe I still have lots of past entries to share. Its just a matter of finding a moment to type them out. Since I owe you guys a few entries, I'll post them within the next couple of days to catch up. After this one, I owe you two more :)
The next few entries are interesting because I wrote these after I was recovering from my second major flare up. That was the worst time in my life!! This is where I lost so much weight that I was confined to a bed for 3 weeks because I was too weak to walk. There's a huge gap of space between this entry and the last retro entry because I was too weak to write anything down. I wish I did... but I physically couldn't. So anyway, please read below:
Wow! I'm not dead! I really thought I was going to die. I have been in so much pain because my Ulcerative Colitis flared up. I cannot believe I am still alive after all that I have been through. I am still in bad shape but it is safe to say that I will recover. Slowly, but I will recover. I am 94 lbs right now. I'm not sure if this is my lowest weight because I was too weak to weigh myself before. I have almost no fat and lost a lot of muscle. I'm skin and bones! Its painful to move but I am alive. I lost so much weight through dehydration and the many bouts of diarrhea. Before I got my flare up, I think I was about 108 lbs. This stupid illness is disgusting and painful. I hope this is the last time it ever happens. I am young and can still fight this off, but if from a few years from now... if this happens again, I maybe not be so lucky. The pain alone would surely kill me. The pain feels like a combination of doing 1,000 sit-ups, getting hit in the stomach with a baseball bat and the feeling of someone scraping my insides and pouring salt into the wound.