Ahh! I keep falling behind! So busy busy busy.... I'm trying my best to keep up with this thing.
(originally posted October 24, 2004)
I realized that my air is thick and healthy once again. Three months ago I had to cut it very short because the side effects of my previous medicine, Asacol, was making it fall out and go thin. I am on a different brand (Colazal) at higher doses. I'm afraid that it will happen again. I was really hoping to have long hair again too.
A milestone happened tonight. For the first time in over a month, I had some firm S!! I've been suffering bloody D all month. My S is nothing close to normal, but its looking like progress.
My parents are very concerned with my health. I am thankful for their efforts in supporting me, but I also know that they are scared. I wonder if they think I'm dying?
I have a very high tolerance for pain, but this kind is so constant, it bears down on me so hard. I don't know if my body can continue. I'm so scared that I might not even wake up the next morning.